meh

i'm not looking forward to tomorrow :\

today was nice, graduation wasn't as long as it could've been, and angela's dad invited me out to dinner with them. thai food is pretty good. i'm now sleeping over and i'm worrying about stuff. my life has no direction, i'm way too shy, i have no nerve, i've been sleeping a lot for no particular reason. i need to straighten my life out basically and i'm not sure where to start. steve and i have had this discussion before, about how i'm too shy and let things pass me by. frankly i'm tired of it but what can you do to fix that? it's not one of those things where you put me in the situation and i'll automatically fix myself, usually i just freeze up, get really awkward, or talk WAAAAAY too much. i'm trying though and i guess that is all that matters.

shore is about two days away. i think this might be a start on the whole getting my life together thing. i've been considering becoming just an artist, this is a fruitless plan but i think i would like it. i'm definitely not going to pursue it though.