eye contact!

another black man hit on me today, this time asking me where the party was tonight. i told him i had work and i think he misunderstood what i said because he asked me another question but i couldn't hear him so i repeated my first answer and walked away. i mean he was pretty far from me; me standing in front of some vendor buying starburst and getting change for a transfer, and him sitting on a bench at least ten feet away. i need to stop answering them but i always feel so rude (even though them addressing some girl with no companion by hitting on them is somewhat rude too) if i don't and they always repeat their questions and it makes me blush constantly and avoid eye contact. i hate when i avoid eye contact even though i do it the majority of the time, only making eye contact with certain people and even then i prefer to look at different parts of their face. i've improved a lot though recently and i can make almost eye contact with more people than i used to be able to. it's just frustrating when people think i'm hiding something or not paying them any attention, it's also frustrating when i recall conversations and i cannot remember people's facial expressions. i guess i just have to be comfortable around you before i can make eye contact and it's a sign of trust from me.